Monday, May 15, 2017
Thursday, April 20, 2017
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3) Feel upbeat and as if I will be able to accomplish all my goals
4) Stay focused for 6-8 hours
5) Effects slowly wear off followed by a period of irritability and low energy. Thoughts on the future and what I will be able to accomplish turn pessimistic.
Slowly over time the different mental states became more and more extreme while the transitions between those states became sudden and jarring.
NOTE: This is an older post. I am actually off the Vyvanse now and I think it was a good decision. I'll write more later!
Thursday, March 2, 2017
It's not surprising I am not handling the stress well. To try to make these deadlines I am working from 8 pm to 11 pm every night this week. It doesn't look like it's going to be enough. What's worse is that after 11 pm I feel deprived of having any time to myself so I've been staying up until 1 am. And to get Curly Jones on the bus, I've got to get up at 6:10. The ultimate trap is that during the day when I should be busting it out at work... I'm
- Emotionally fragile from the sleep deprivation
- Dejected about working last night
- Pissed that I will work that night
- Freaked out about how I'm not getting enough done
So what is the result of all that? I am unfocused. I am not productive. On two days I've even walked away for two hours. And there's the trap. An unproductive day necessitates working that night. The stress, exhaustion, resentment build. The productivity drops. The distance between Mary and I widens.
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Sunday, January 15, 2017
What a shitty 3 weeks it's been. Vyvanse hasn't made me immune to the depression that always comes this time of year. I had hoped it would help. Perhaps it has made it less severe, but, of course there's no way to know that.
I don't even know what to summarize things since I was posting somewhat regularly. It's been a very long time. I've often thought of writing. It's pretty obvious I often have doubts I have anything worthwhile to say. My free time starts after 7:30 at night which on the one hand is a luxurious amount of time before bed. On the other hand I'm usually tired and lazy by that time. I frequently disappear into my phone. Unfortunately I've developed a habit of reading the news, which almost certainly is not good for my mental health. Maybe I'll get back to blogging..
Friday, October 21, 2016
Time plus two hours and thirty minutes.
Current time: 1:41 pm
Reason, readability, speedily, hurriedly
Free wi-fi for one hour for being T-Mobile customer. Whoo-hoo!!
Baby I could be your man.
National Geographic. Scientific American. Kindle Seveneves. Kindle Ted Chiang short story.
Thursday, October 20, 2016
And then we called upon the Author to explain
Eleven million children are on Ritalin
That's way I don't rhyme for the sake of riddlin'
False media, we don't need it, do we?
Pilgrims, Slaves, Indian, Mexican
It looks real fucked up for your next of kin
That's why I don't rhyme for the sake of riddlin'
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