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More racing thoughts.  Work productivity is a little better, but I wouldn't say by much.  I've managed to make a little more progress on one simple bug.  On a good day this bug should take an hour.  I'm going on a day and a half at this point.

How am I supposed to focus when I am this distractable and filled with restless energy?  It's almost like akathisia but I can't imagine why I would be experiencing that.  I'm able to sit still for periods of time.  It's akin to "butterflies" in your stomach.  I frequently have to take a deep breath as I realize I'm breathing so shallowly that I'm out of breath.

I'm self-diagnosing it as hypomania at this point.  All I want to do is write and draw.  The ideas are flowing even though I can barely focus.  My mind is jumping from one idea to another, thinking about finances, the upcoming yard work, autism, bipolar, my brother, my parents, the list goes on.

So far today I have:
1) Done 4 loads of laundry
2) Deactivated my old twitter account and started a new twitter account for @frustratedmess I'm hoping to use it to spew out random stuff and not clutter the blog.
3) Updated the layout of blog adding a button to follow me on twitter
4) Corrected several errors in old blog posts
5) E-mailed the Bipolar Blogger Network asking them to add my blog to their list.

And probably more posts are in the works... so more than one in a day perhaps!  Can you say hypomania?

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