It's not surprising I am not handling the stress well. To try to make these deadlines I am working from 8 pm to 11 pm every night this week. It doesn't look like it's going to be enough. What's worse is that after 11 pm I feel deprived of having any time to myself so I've been staying up until 1 am. And to get Curly Jones on the bus, I've got to get up at 6:10. The ultimate trap is that during the day when I should be busting it out at work... I'm
- Emotionally fragile from the sleep deprivation
- Dejected about working last night
- Pissed that I will work that night
- Freaked out about how I'm not getting enough done
So what is the result of all that? I am unfocused. I am not productive. On two days I've even walked away for two hours. And there's the trap. An unproductive day necessitates working that night. The stress, exhaustion, resentment build. The productivity drops. The distance between Mary and I widens.
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